Wet Wedding

It is so nice to get away sometimes. As much as I love the opportunity that The Lord has blessed me with to be home with my little ones...I NEED A BREAK!!!!
Bill and I went to a friends wedding in Rome over the Weekend. I should clarify that we went to Rome, Ga. It was so much fun!!! We just hung out and had fun with one another and did not have to worry about chasing the kids around.

By the time we got there...I was really wondering how in the world they found this place! It took 2 hours and we had to drive up some steep and winding gravel roads but it was all worth it. The view was amazing!

I have never been to a wedding where people were actually drinking during the ceremony. I thought it was so funny. I made Bill's mom take a picture of us with a beer.

The beautiful Bride

I told Bill to PRETEND like he was going to throw me in the pool for a picture...

He couldn't resist!

The water felt so nice so I continued to jump in the pool. It was soooo much fun!

Congrats Tim and Carrie!!!! I'm so glad we were able to share in your beautiful day.

Sneezing Bugs

When I was little one of my favorite books was "Because a Little Bug Went Ka-Chooo"

You may not believe it, but here's how it happened.

One fine summer morning...a little bug sneezed.

because of that sneeze a little seed dropped.

Because that seed dropped, a worm got hit. Because he got hit, that worm got mad.

Because he got mad...he kicked a tree.

Because of that kick, a coconut dropped.

Ha! I can't believe I remembered all of that. You'll have to read it to see what happens next but let me assure you...that little sneeze leads to quite a mess.

Last Monday a chain of events occurred that resulted in a brand new look to our downstairs! It reminded me of my favorite childhood book.

Zoee dumped out a whole basket of laundry.

I cheerfully cleaned up the mess.

While I was cleaning the clothes...I noticed how dirty the baseboards were.

So I cleaned the baseboards in our room and on into the hallway.

While I was in the hallway...I noticed how dirty the walls were.

I tried to clean them with a damp cloth then with a magic eraser, which magically took the paint off the wall!

Soooo.........

The next day I painted.

and the next

and the next!

By Friday I was finished painting the kitchen, the mudroom/study and the hallway and I hated it. I was so mad that I so impulsively ran to the paint store grabbed a color and painted half of the downstairs!

Luckily my mom was home and came to the rescue. She pulled out all the old hidden pictures I had in the attic and under beds and turned it into something I loved. I asked her if I could take credit for it. She said yes...of course. But it looked too good for me to take the credit.

Now that it's all over...I say yeah for spilt laundry!

And that's how it happened. Believe me it's true. Because...

just because...a small bug

went Ka-CHOO!!!!!

Hampster Wheels

I started this blog to write about My daily struggle with anxiety disorder. I have yet to admit that I have anxiety though. I write about all the things my kids are up to...and as much as I enjoy that...it is only a distraction from the things that are really spinning around on that hamster wheel in my head.
As much as I appreciate openness and transparency...it is so hard to bring myself to admit that I struggle  (sometimes daily).
So here goes...
I have panic disorder!!!!
I have a knot in my stomach just thinking about clicking publish. Maybe I won't!

I didn't hit publish the other night but I think I might tonight.

I have learned a lot during this time in the valley. I can appreciate the mountain tops so much more. It's hard to think that Gods will for our lives involves a great deal of struggling but I know that these are the times that I am depending on Him the most and He is refining my character.

I am currently taking medication for the anxiety. I started on 50mg of Zoloft and .25mg of Xanax every morning. Now I am on 100mg of Zoloft and am no longer taking the Xanax. PROGRESS!!!!! I feel like after 2 years of therapy and now 6 months of medication things are getting better...much better! I drove on the interstate for the first time in 2.5 years last week. It was great although, I felt like I had to learn how to drive all over again. I have been to Target too many times (I always spend too much) and go to the grocery store about 2x per week.

I still have a hard time at Kroger and Walmart but I do feel like I can lead a normal somewhat normal life. I am enjoying my kids alot and have even completed a few projects at home.

I have to thank my wonderful friends (both real life and bloggy), my sweet husband...who read every anxiety book without my knowledge and went to therapy with me and my family for loving me no matter what.

I'll write more later. the pictures are just some random recent shots of the kids.